Why are there even people who choose to get hurt by loving someone else when someone is already willing to give their whole heart and soul to you?

Why are there people like me?

Now tell me, have you ever even felt that we were more than that?

Or was I the only one who thinks so?

Dear you,

I hope this letter will finally say everything I wanted to tell you right from the start. I always wanted to talk to you but I was worried that “talking” might just scare you away and that it’s selfish for me to talk because you don’t even feel anything that’s bothering enough to talk about. Then again, I may be wrong, and deep inside my heart, i am hoping that i am wrong.

Back then, when we were “doing it,” I immediately concluded that our relationship was just that and it couldn’t grow into anything more fruitful than that. I guess we were pretty much bored and just got off from a relationship. I had my “boys” and you most probably had your “girls” as well. Everything was okay. But that was until I wanted a monogamous relationship. I fell in love and have gotten over my single life.

I was never good at keeping in touch with people and I can say that it’s easy for me to get over a person. Missing someone was never a problem to me since it only takes a day to a couple of months for me to “forget” a person. However, thoughts of you came inside my head for quite some time. I never wanted to entertain it though ‘cause I felt like I was so lucky to have someone who’s head over heels in love with me and I thought that what “we had” was just that. Several months have passed and thoughts of you still occur in my mind. That was when I thought that maybe, I needed closure.

We met again at around September and just went through with how our “relationship” have always been. I thought that after that, I’d be over you so “let’s just get through with it.” However, it just didn’t seem to work that way and my feelings for you just got stronger. I knew feelings were never a part of relationships like this but I just couldn’t help it and I’m sorry. I fell in love with you, completely. I kept on making myself believe that I’m in love with him but no, I kept on longing for you.

Yes, I deleted you as a friend on Facebook because that’s where all these feelings flourished. I tried not to make any contact with you for as long as I could but just when everything’s going right, little miss fucking destiny makes its way to remind me of you.

All these have never happened to me before and it hurts me like hell every moment you enter my fucked up mind. If you can’t find it in your heart to love me back, then just tell me to leave you alone and stop bugging you with letters like this. I would really appreciate it if you would choose to hurt me one last time than leave me hoping for the day you’ll fall in love with me which will probably never happen.

I’m sorry for being so overly dramatic. I just felt like I had to write down how I really feel about you and about us.

Sincerely,

Me

P.S.

I love you.

She’s having a baby, a baby that’s not even yours and yet you’re choosing her over me. Why couldn’t you find it in your heart to fall in love with me, huh?

Would you rather get hurt really bad once or would you rather feel the pain for as long as it hits you?

and just when she thought everything was perfect, he gave her the kiss of death.